April 19

My last blog post! Whooo! My failed blog experiement is over! As fun as this was, I dont think I'm quite blog material. I'm watching it rain, and hail, out my living room windows right now. I hope my cars okay :( ok, well I'm done now! I wont say until next time cuz well, Ill probably never use this blog again! Bye yall! Idk why I say yall, no one reads this. ha  ha

April 18

Well one more post after this one! Math class sucks, which is why I'm not paying attention and blogging instead. Had a great weekend, spent it all with Zach :) we had a couple movie nights and went to the art festival downtown, which was a blast. Gotta sign up for defensive driving, not so excited for that. But Zach has to take it to so at least I have a class buddy! Ok gotta take some notes. Until next time :)

April 12

Two days in a row! And only three more posts after this! Not that I don't like blogging, I just have nothing relevant to say. Yesterday was pretty good I guess. Went to my classes, it was Monday so I had Creative Writing, fave class. It was a lot of fun. Then I had a store meeting, which was lame. Then I went to dinner with Michael. Came home, studied a little, went to bed. I just finished taking a history test. It wasn't as hard as I thought it was going to be and I feel okay about it now. I think I did alright. Okay, well that's all I really have to say. Until the next of my final three posts!

April 11

After a busy weekend, I have once again failed as a blogger. But I have a fantastic weekend to write about! On Friday, it was day one of our 3 day super sale at work. So we were very busy but after work I went to the movies to see Soul Surfer with Kaylee and Cam. However the fun tone was brought down quite a bit by the fact that I ran into Matt. Then Saturday, total madness. EVERYONE in Burleson, TX showed up for the sale. I didn't sit down or even stop for ten and a half hours :( ugh. After I got off work I came home, took a shower, and went to what was supposed to be a barbeque with Kaylee. It was at the house of one of her work friends, and we were invited to even out the girl-to-guy ratio. Not one even decent guy there. This "barbeque" was not in a yard, no, it was in the garage. We walked up and everyone was already drunk and/or high and the place reeked of beer and pot. And there were kids there. So after ten minutes, we said we were going to the car for tampons and snuck away, only mildly contact high. Ha ha. We ended up at the movies again, this time to see Insidious with Michael. That movie was scary as hell, and Kaylee ended up sleeping in the same bed with me that night. Then Sunday was another loooong day of work, then Michael bought me a pink helmet so we rode around on his motorcycle for a while and went to Marble Slab, which was a blast :) an that's it! This may be a record for longest entry! Until next time.

April 8

Watching that movie makes me want to chop my arm off. That no titty ficus lookin hoe sho nuff got owned
-Cameron Lopez

April 6

Ok, just a few more posts! i wish i had something more exciting to write about on here buuut i dont. my life isnt all that exciting. today was incredibly long. i had school then work, which was craaazyyy. we were insanely busy and i had to train the new girl and work on putting up the truck. it wasa nightmare. i didnt sit or even stop for 7 and a half hours. gahhh! hopefully tomorrow will be better!

April 4

Ok I remembered to blog today! I had a meeting with advisor and decided that I'm switching to an english/journalism major. I'm just not feeling like math is really what I want to do and writing is what i do best. So I'm very excited to start classes :) in other news I think mason has at least the virus part of my hp fixed! Ok until next time!

quote

Remember, if you ever need a helping hand, you'll find one at the end of your arm ... As you grow older you will discover that you have two hands. One for helping yourself, the other for helping others.
--Audrey Hepburn 

April 3

Well I fell off of the blogging wagon for yet another day. Oh well. This weekend has been fun. On Friday I worked and then went the mall with two of my friends, my sister, and her prom date. My friends and I were getting a baby shower gift for our other friend, and while it was being engraved we shopped for prom shoes with my sister and ate some dinner at the food court. Yesterday was Saturday and it was a loooong but great day! I got up early and did some housework that needed to be done, dishes and laundry and such. Then I took a shower and got ready for Courtney's baby shower. It was a lot of fun and I got to see a lot of old friends that I havent seen since high school. Then i went home and switched out the dishes. right as i was finishing that up michael and chris showed up so me, chris, michael, and hailey all headed to keller to see see big jake, my best friend, and justin, guy im talking to, play in their semi pro football game. it was a great game and their team has been doing great all season, but the other team had a really awesome play at the very end of the game and jake and justin's team lost :( but after the game we all went down the road to taco bell and hung out there for hours. it was a blast! we got home late and just all crashed. and now, sunday, has been spent doing homework. lets hope i can keep up and get these last few blogs done :)

April 1

Well today has been the worst day ever. I wrecked my car. Like, totalled it. It's gonna cost several thousand dollars to fix it. So much for the Kia. The cost of recently replacing my laptop and now having to fix my car will not allow me to pay my tuition at TCU. So looks like I'm going to have to take a semester off. Great. FML.


Oh, btw, April fools y'all :)

March 31

Ok two days in a row. That's progress. Things are going much more smoothly now that I have a new laptop that works. My next task is seeing if my assistant manager can retrieve the several thousand pictures off of my hard drive. If not I just may cry. Ok well I guess it's back to work!

March 30

All righty, well I need 45 blogs and I believe I have 31. I fail as a blogger. Things have been stressful lately. A lot of drama with my family that has basically resulted in the disowning of my cousin :( it's very sad. My computer just died and getting it fixed was going to cost an outrageous amount and buying a new one was a nightmare! But I got a new Toshiba (never buy an HP) and I got home with it and set it up late last night. So hopefully it'll be smooth sailing from here on out. I already like the new laptop much better. I think a can of kerosene may be in the near future for Mr. HP. He's got it comin. Ok well I've gotta get back to work. Until next time :)

March 23

Ok, well it's morning and way too early to be up. But I have class. Ugh. I wish I could have evening classes. That would be awesome. I don't really have any big plans today, school and work and then homework. I need to finish my practice test for math so I can study tomorrow. All right well I gotta finish getting ready for class. Until later :)

March 22

Well today was pretty much uneventful. Woke up, went to class, went to work. After work I did go to my hometown softball game. It's strange to see a JV player wearing the varsity jersey we special ordered for me. Other than that, uneventful day! Until next time!

March 21

Ok, it's the first day back from spring break and I am determined to stay on top of this blogging thing. I may even try to blog twice a day to make up for the ones I missed or something. Lol. Anywho, done with that one guy. Total jerk, to avoid using profanities on here. I think I'm just going to give up and be done with it. I'm so sick of jerks. Spring break was great though, had a lot of fun with a lot of great people! All right well it's time for sleep. Until next time!

March 7

So it's official, I'm a terrible blogger. But the fact is that between all my classes in the morning, work in the evenings, and giving pitching lessons after that, then coming home to do homework, the whole blogging thing slips my mind. But things have been okay lately. Having issues with one guy I've been seeing. I guess he can't get it through his head that if he wants to act this way, he can leave. I don't care. And there's another guy who is giving me mixed signals and it's driving me crazy. So we will see what happens. The whole pitching lesson thing is going really good. I have quite a few students now and at $20 a lesson it's not bad pocket money. Ok, now that I've blogged I'm going to do something that's actually productive. Later.

February 23

Well, my teachers are trying to kill me. I have two math quizzes and 12 online math assignments. Just assigned and due tomorrow. I have two 5 page research papers, due Monday. One has a presentation to go with it. I have to revise a 5 page paper. And I have a 1 page paper and a short story. Lord help me. Plus work is crazy busy which is worsened by the fact that I've barely been sleeping due to my homework load. On top of all that, one of the guys I've been seeing, that I actually like, is being, idk, weird? He's got something going on in his family and keeps apologizing and saying he's just really stressed. So that means he can't talk to me? Getting tired of it. This is why I haven't had a boyfriend since the break up. On top of that there's this one guy who I get along great with in class and after class. But outside of class its like I can't get him to have a conversation with me. What's up with that?? I'd like to know. Ok, that's my rant for the day. That is all :)

February 20

Well, this weekend has kinda sucked, to put it lightly. Fought with my mom, got a ticket, and just all around not fun. I did go see I Am Number Four with Dustin though. It was a great movie and we had fun. Other than that, sucky ass weekend.

February 17

Ok well it has been a busy few days. Work has picked back up again and all my professors are cramming everything together in order to catch up from the ice days, so I can't seem to find a free moment. I did manage to make time to have coffee with Dustin yesterday, which was fun. It was nice to just sit, relax, and talk. Ok well I don't have much else to say. Til next time.

February 15

Ok, I'm tired. I've only slept for 5 hours. I had said over and over that I wasn't gonna go out for Valentine's Day and I turned down all kinds of offers. But Dustin called last night and wanted to go to dinner and well, I said yes. Even though I had a test to study for. We had a great time, but I didn't get home Til late. And I'm kinda sad cuz my friend Jessey, who is in germany with the army, ordered flowers to be sent to me online as a surprise, but they never got to me :( idk if they showed up while no one was home or if they just didn't show up at all. I hope they get here cuz that's such a sweet thing he did! Ok, until next time.

February 13

Ok, so obviously I'm a terrible blogger. I try to keep up with this thing but I'm busy and sometimes it slips my mind. Do I get an A for effort? Let's hope so. Well, tomorrow is Valentine's Day. Yay...not. Valentines day is only fun if you're not single. Oh well, just another day. Ok, just wanted to write. Im tired so it's bedtime. Gnight!

Phantom (some poetry)

This is my unrhymed poem...although this is a research paper class, creative writing is my passion and where my talent lies. Just felt like putting this up, like I said in my last entry, my poetry always rhymes and this one doesn't sooo yeah :)
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By day I smile.
The moments pass
And I'm happy.
Content.
I can ignore
The emptiness
That resides
In my chest.

The days drift past
With ease.
But by night,
I can't
Escape you.
The phantom
Of your memory
Haunts
My
Subconscious.

I see you.
Sometimes,
You're with her.
Others,
You're still mine.
Each scenario
Wakes me
With the bitter taste
Of adversity
On my tongue.
I don't want you.
Need you.
Know you.
You are nothing
But a fraud.

However,
When I close my eyes,
The apparition
Of what was
Torments me.
You are
My
Demon.

February 9

Well this has been an interesting few days since my last post. I am currently at McDonalds and taking a minor break from studying for my History exam that is supposed to be tomorrow. Why am I at McDonalds? Well, I live off campus and my internet is down. Oh, and it cant be fixed until Friday. Starbucks in Burleson is crammed full and Borders decided that today would be a good day to close at 1 pm. So, studying at McD's it is! It's not so bad, french fries are an awesome brain food. School was out today cuz of the ice, again, so at least I got to sleep for a few extra hours. I dont feel like it though. I havent been sleeping well lately. If I'm not having dreams that I hate about someone I hate, which wakes me up routinely every two hours, then it's a restless sleep and I wake up feeling like I've pulled an all nighter. The dreams are the worst...they piss me off. I dont even think abou the someone who shall not be named these days. Yeah, he ruined my life for a second time, but I've moved on completely. Now he wants to wake me up in the middle of the night. Awesome. I enjoy sleep and now he's ruining that too. Let's hope tonight I can get some good sleep!!! :) The only good thing about what that, "jerk" to put it lightly, did is that he is good poetic inspiration. Ive had writers block and these awful dreams have given me enough inspiration for a good poem. An unrhymed one i might add, which is big news for me! I'm a rhymer, and am quite proud to be told that my newest work is pretty good :) so exciting! until next time yall :)

February 6

Well last night was a blast! Everyone has had cabin fever from being stuck at home so much, so we went out. Me and my cousin Kate and her boyfriend David took my sister and her friend Travis and our cousin Christina bowling with us! We played air hockey during the 45 minute wait and once we finally got a lane, we had a group of drunk guys next to us, who only kept getting drunker. They decided that they would watch me bowl first so they could "get their view" before bowling themselves. Then they started doing it to my cousin Christina and sister Hailey, who are both 17. So they made things interesting. After two hours of bowling we all came home, picked up Michael, and played Just Dance on the Wii until we all passed out at 4 am. And now it's Super Bowl Sunday and it's two teams I hate! Well, until next time! :)

February 5

Well yesterday was a blast!!! My manager texted telling me I didn't have to come in, so I stayed home and played in the snow! My best friend chris came over and we had snowball fights with each other, my sisters and cousin, and anyone who came our way. Then kaylee came over and we went across the street where chris' girlfriend Stacey lives and had snowball fights with her and her friends. After we finally finished playing in the snow we walked back home and Ace came over. We all crammed on the couch, me, Ace, Hailey, Christina, and Travis, and watched Paranormal Activity because Christina had never seen it. Today has been uneventful so far. I'm working but there is still no one coming in so there isn't much to do. All right, until next time :)

February 3

I know it's 2 a.m., I've got to stop these late night entries but I fell asleep on the couch a few hours ago. It's snowing!!!! It all looks so beautiful AND it's gotten class cancelled for another day! yayy!!! That means I get to sleep in tomorrow, yet again! I just wish I didn't have to work :( it's so pointless, no one is coming in. Oh well, I've gotten my homework all caught up so I'm very proud of myself :) ok well I'm stil sleepy so it's bedtime! Until later :)

February 2

Ok, well ice day number two is finally drawing to a close. I've tried my best to really make use of these ice days and catch up all my math assignments, which I have been quite successful at today since my boss told me I didn't have to come in! I played some board games with my sisters and cousin earlier, but other than that's its been all homework, all day. And aside from work that's how it shall be tomorrow. Well, "today" if you want to get all technical, since it's after midnight. Ok, well I'm tired and I work tomorrow, so goodnight :) until next time!

February 1

Well this weekend was definitely great! We went to dinner at PF Changs, which was great! Michael surprised us all by paying for everyone's dinner! Then we went to Putt Putt in Hurst because Hyena's was sold out. It was so much fun! We got almost 5600 tickets, raced go karts, and hit in the batting cages :) I had a blast! And there is no school today or tomorrow thanks to the ice! Good few days so far! Until tomorrow!

January 29

Wow, long day. I'm so tired. I wish I could have slept in later today. School was especially boring today and work was crazy busy, and then my Friday night has consisted of trying (unsuccessfully so far) to catch up on my online math assignments. She gives us way too many in my opinion. I'm excited for tomorrow though. I'm going to PF Changs and then to Hyena's with my friends for my birthday :)) I never do anything for my birthday so it's quite exciting! Ok, well I needed a little breather from the math overload, but now I have to get back to work! Until next time :)

January 27

Well, it's bedtime and I haven't blogged today dang it. Today was fairly uneventful. It was my sister's birthday, so I got her a cake and an orange rose and picked up dinner. Not that she appreciated it. I mean really, I made myself frozen lasagna on my birthday. If someone had gotten me a flower I would be ecstatic. But oh well. Other than that just school and work and homework. I read mirror on America then did a buuuunch of math homework. I just can't get caught up in that class! Ok, I just got out of the shower, and it's bedtime. Gnight :)

January 26

Well another day at the paint store is drawing to an end. We have been really busy today and I just had to fill a 100 gallon order with some of the heaviest stuff in our store. It weighs about 85 pounds per 5 gallon bucket. So I'm very tired and have a lot of homework to go home to. Other than that not much has gone on today, I'm thinking about getting a second job this summer so I can save up some. And I need to write a new poem for my creative writing class so I've been thinkin about that. Ok well that's all I have to say today. Until tomorrow :)

January 25

Ok well yesterday was crazy and my birthday so I didn't get a chance to blog. I had a long day of class but my cousin Chad took me to lunch at Dutch's so it was nice to see him and talk for a while. Then I came home to my house full of sick people, all who have now been officially diagnosed with the flu...great. I did some homework and made dinner, then my cousin showed up all scratched up and bleeding. Her mother, my aunt, died when my cousin Christina was 7, and Christina's father remarried to a woman my aunt hated, Amy. Well after a huge fight between them in which Amy said some horrible things about Christina's mom, christina decided to leave by climbing out of her 2nd story window and scaling the side of the house. Which worked until she managed to land herself in a rosebush. She stayed the night at my house and we doctored all of her wounds and hid her car in my garage. So happy birthday to me I guess! Ha ha. Ok well my history class is starting now. With this gloomy weather it looks like it's gonna be a long day :(

January 23

Well today has been a long day. My mom, dad, and sisters all have the flu. Everyone in my house is sick but me (knock on wood). So not only did I have Colton and Ashten's baby shower to attend, but I have three (my dad drives a truck and is out if town) sick and whiney people to play nurse to. But the baby shower was fun. I can't wait for my little niece (Colton is practically my brother) Ryli Anne Bivens to get here! So excited! And tomorrow is my birthday! I'll be the big 2-0! I'm interested to see how this day turns out seeing how I have school and a house full of sick people to look forward to...happy twentieth to me! Oh well, my birthdays are almost always a big letdown so it's nothing new. Ok, until tomorrow! :) next time I blog I'll be 20!

January 21

Well today has been a good day! Work was pretty slow, but it's ok because we watched Jurassic Park in the office. I love my job. After work I went and washed my car. The weather was nice and it desperately needed it! Now it's all shiny and clean! Then I went and got a present for the baby shower tomorrow, then went to the store and got everything I needed to make some chili....it was awesome. I'm pretty excited because I've written some new poems lately. If anything good comes out of a nasty break up, it's poetic inspiation. Now I'm watching The Last Song and bawling my eyes out. It's not as good as the book. Ok, until tomorrow!

January 21

Well it just keeps getting colder! Where did the warm weather go?! Today was way way too cold. But now I'm home and it's Friday and I don't feel like going out tonight so I'm going to stay home and catch up on my homework. Maybe it's a lame way to spend a Friday night but I just don't feel like going anywhere and I have things due on Monday. My best friend and his girlfriend are having their baby shower Sunday so I want to make sure everything is done. I'm so excited to be an aunt. Again! My friend had her baby two weeks ago. And on Monday I turn 20! So much going on! Ok well going to go do my homework now. Til tomorrow!

January 20

How to describe today...COLD. I am so sick of this awful weather and freezing wind, I just want it to be summer again. I miss my shorts. Today I got up and went to school, then realized one of my headlights is out. So now I have to get that fixed too. Great. I went to all my classes and then to work, which was slow again. Unfortunately, we have plenty to do. We are doing what the company calls "Plan-O-Gramming," which we have to do annually. Basically, they send us diagrams of how to rearrange and relabel everything. It takes ages and is a huge pain. And now I'm home and doing homework! Not the most exciting day, but definately one of the coldest I've been through in a long time! Well, guess that's about it. Until tomorrow!

January 19

Well, the past few days have been pretty much uneventful. Monday was a lazy day. I went to Stone Soup for lunch with my mom and sister while the oil was being changed in my car, then spent the rest of the day doing nothing special. Tuesday was typical, school and work and homework, as always. And today has been much of the same. Went to class, went to work, which was horribly slow, and did some homework at work. Got off work, came home, and am now doing my homework. And that's pretty much my last few days! Boring post.

January 16

Well today has been a looong day! Last night was crazy...my friend Dani is leaving for the army Tuesday, and she had a bonfire for her going away party. We went on the car ride from hell when Dani drove to go pick up a friend, and we spent the night around the bonfire making smores. On the way home last night, Kaylee and I feared for our lives...the fog was so thick that we couldn't see past the end of our headlights. It was a very slow drive home! We came home and passed out on the couch, and woke up this morning and got ready for the stock show! Although it was cold, we covered all of our bases and had a blast. I still have a headache from riding a ride called The Zipper, but it was by far one of the most fun things I've ever done! I also got to pet a lemur at the stock show today, and he sat on my shoulder! Well, I think that about covers my weekend! Oh and I just fixed the time stamp on my blog! Whoop!

January 15

Well I think I'm getting the hang of this "write in your blog every day" thing. Today's another slow day at work. The rainy weather keeps people from wanting to paint so we have nothing to do. I've looked at my blog and realized that for some reason, the times that I post my blog entries shows up as two hours earlier than it really is. I've yet to figure out how to change it. I still have an hour and a half til I get off work and absolutely nothing to do. I've cleaned swept and straightened everything, so I'm thinking it's time for another nap before this party tonight...which should be interesting since its s bonfire outside and its been raining all night and all day. Guess we'll see how it plays out!

January 14

Today is Friday! And I couldnt be happier. The first week of the spring semester is over. Got a busy weekend ahead of me. My friend leaves for the army next week so I'm going to her going away party tomorrow night. Should be fun, as long as no one pukes in my car. The thing about me not drinking is it automatically makes me the designated driver. Sunday I'm going to the stock show with some friends and then to the TCU rose bowl celebration thing! Very exciting. Ok well I'm gonna get some sleep. Getting up early for work on a Saturday....bummer.

January 13

Ok blog entry number two. Again I'm multi-tasking. Tonight I'm on the phone with my friend Cameron listening to him play guitar...yes, he plays guitar for me on the phone. Today was a pretty boring day. Class as usual, hung out with the guys at the Sherwin Williams on Trail Lake in between classes. No sliding on the ice today, thank goodness! Work has slowed down a lot because of the cold, but I think the cold wears me out faster than work does. Ok, well that's about all I can think of to write tonight. Good night :)

January 12

Ok so, I've never kept a blog and I'm not quite sure what to write just yet. Right now I'm at work, sitting in the back on a 5 gallon paint can. Work is slow today at Sherwin Williams and my manager is not my favorite person to kill time around. So I figured why not do some homework on my iPhone. At least I'm using my time wisely right? Today has been pretty normal, aside from my Kia sliding sideways on the ice trying to get to school this morning. The interior handle on my car has been broken for almost two months now, it no longer opens my door, so hopefully my friend Michael can get the panel off and fix it tonight. Ok, hopefully this was a successful first blog entry. Gotta go close the store up.