February 23

Well, my teachers are trying to kill me. I have two math quizzes and 12 online math assignments. Just assigned and due tomorrow. I have two 5 page research papers, due Monday. One has a presentation to go with it. I have to revise a 5 page paper. And I have a 1 page paper and a short story. Lord help me. Plus work is crazy busy which is worsened by the fact that I've barely been sleeping due to my homework load. On top of all that, one of the guys I've been seeing, that I actually like, is being, idk, weird? He's got something going on in his family and keeps apologizing and saying he's just really stressed. So that means he can't talk to me? Getting tired of it. This is why I haven't had a boyfriend since the break up. On top of that there's this one guy who I get along great with in class and after class. But outside of class its like I can't get him to have a conversation with me. What's up with that?? I'd like to know. Ok, that's my rant for the day. That is all :)

February 20

Well, this weekend has kinda sucked, to put it lightly. Fought with my mom, got a ticket, and just all around not fun. I did go see I Am Number Four with Dustin though. It was a great movie and we had fun. Other than that, sucky ass weekend.

February 17

Ok well it has been a busy few days. Work has picked back up again and all my professors are cramming everything together in order to catch up from the ice days, so I can't seem to find a free moment. I did manage to make time to have coffee with Dustin yesterday, which was fun. It was nice to just sit, relax, and talk. Ok well I don't have much else to say. Til next time.

February 15

Ok, I'm tired. I've only slept for 5 hours. I had said over and over that I wasn't gonna go out for Valentine's Day and I turned down all kinds of offers. But Dustin called last night and wanted to go to dinner and well, I said yes. Even though I had a test to study for. We had a great time, but I didn't get home Til late. And I'm kinda sad cuz my friend Jessey, who is in germany with the army, ordered flowers to be sent to me online as a surprise, but they never got to me :( idk if they showed up while no one was home or if they just didn't show up at all. I hope they get here cuz that's such a sweet thing he did! Ok, until next time.

February 13

Ok, so obviously I'm a terrible blogger. I try to keep up with this thing but I'm busy and sometimes it slips my mind. Do I get an A for effort? Let's hope so. Well, tomorrow is Valentine's Day. Yay...not. Valentines day is only fun if you're not single. Oh well, just another day. Ok, just wanted to write. Im tired so it's bedtime. Gnight!

Phantom (some poetry)

This is my unrhymed poem...although this is a research paper class, creative writing is my passion and where my talent lies. Just felt like putting this up, like I said in my last entry, my poetry always rhymes and this one doesn't sooo yeah :)
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By day I smile.
The moments pass
And I'm happy.
Content.
I can ignore
The emptiness
That resides
In my chest.

The days drift past
With ease.
But by night,
I can't
Escape you.
The phantom
Of your memory
Haunts
My
Subconscious.

I see you.
Sometimes,
You're with her.
Others,
You're still mine.
Each scenario
Wakes me
With the bitter taste
Of adversity
On my tongue.
I don't want you.
Need you.
Know you.
You are nothing
But a fraud.

However,
When I close my eyes,
The apparition
Of what was
Torments me.
You are
My
Demon.

February 9

Well this has been an interesting few days since my last post. I am currently at McDonalds and taking a minor break from studying for my History exam that is supposed to be tomorrow. Why am I at McDonalds? Well, I live off campus and my internet is down. Oh, and it cant be fixed until Friday. Starbucks in Burleson is crammed full and Borders decided that today would be a good day to close at 1 pm. So, studying at McD's it is! It's not so bad, french fries are an awesome brain food. School was out today cuz of the ice, again, so at least I got to sleep for a few extra hours. I dont feel like it though. I havent been sleeping well lately. If I'm not having dreams that I hate about someone I hate, which wakes me up routinely every two hours, then it's a restless sleep and I wake up feeling like I've pulled an all nighter. The dreams are the worst...they piss me off. I dont even think abou the someone who shall not be named these days. Yeah, he ruined my life for a second time, but I've moved on completely. Now he wants to wake me up in the middle of the night. Awesome. I enjoy sleep and now he's ruining that too. Let's hope tonight I can get some good sleep!!! :) The only good thing about what that, "jerk" to put it lightly, did is that he is good poetic inspiration. Ive had writers block and these awful dreams have given me enough inspiration for a good poem. An unrhymed one i might add, which is big news for me! I'm a rhymer, and am quite proud to be told that my newest work is pretty good :) so exciting! until next time yall :)

February 6

Well last night was a blast! Everyone has had cabin fever from being stuck at home so much, so we went out. Me and my cousin Kate and her boyfriend David took my sister and her friend Travis and our cousin Christina bowling with us! We played air hockey during the 45 minute wait and once we finally got a lane, we had a group of drunk guys next to us, who only kept getting drunker. They decided that they would watch me bowl first so they could "get their view" before bowling themselves. Then they started doing it to my cousin Christina and sister Hailey, who are both 17. So they made things interesting. After two hours of bowling we all came home, picked up Michael, and played Just Dance on the Wii until we all passed out at 4 am. And now it's Super Bowl Sunday and it's two teams I hate! Well, until next time! :)

February 5

Well yesterday was a blast!!! My manager texted telling me I didn't have to come in, so I stayed home and played in the snow! My best friend chris came over and we had snowball fights with each other, my sisters and cousin, and anyone who came our way. Then kaylee came over and we went across the street where chris' girlfriend Stacey lives and had snowball fights with her and her friends. After we finally finished playing in the snow we walked back home and Ace came over. We all crammed on the couch, me, Ace, Hailey, Christina, and Travis, and watched Paranormal Activity because Christina had never seen it. Today has been uneventful so far. I'm working but there is still no one coming in so there isn't much to do. All right, until next time :)

February 3

I know it's 2 a.m., I've got to stop these late night entries but I fell asleep on the couch a few hours ago. It's snowing!!!! It all looks so beautiful AND it's gotten class cancelled for another day! yayy!!! That means I get to sleep in tomorrow, yet again! I just wish I didn't have to work :( it's so pointless, no one is coming in. Oh well, I've gotten my homework all caught up so I'm very proud of myself :) ok well I'm stil sleepy so it's bedtime! Until later :)

February 2

Ok, well ice day number two is finally drawing to a close. I've tried my best to really make use of these ice days and catch up all my math assignments, which I have been quite successful at today since my boss told me I didn't have to come in! I played some board games with my sisters and cousin earlier, but other than that's its been all homework, all day. And aside from work that's how it shall be tomorrow. Well, "today" if you want to get all technical, since it's after midnight. Ok, well I'm tired and I work tomorrow, so goodnight :) until next time!

February 1

Well this weekend was definitely great! We went to dinner at PF Changs, which was great! Michael surprised us all by paying for everyone's dinner! Then we went to Putt Putt in Hurst because Hyena's was sold out. It was so much fun! We got almost 5600 tickets, raced go karts, and hit in the batting cages :) I had a blast! And there is no school today or tomorrow thanks to the ice! Good few days so far! Until tomorrow!